A surgical birth does not feel like giving birth to me. I do not feel like I have ever "given birth". My babies are removed. They are ripped from me by a surgeons hand. They are not brought into this world as nature intends. I have battled with actually feeling like a real mother since C was born. I feel like a fraud and a fake when they call me mom. I didn't go through birth to make me a mom. I was drugged, strapped down, sliced open and sent on my way. No right of passage did I complete to get the honor of Mom.
My sections were relatively easy, as far as sections go. No infection, no serious adhesions, nothing that really would be challenging. Except the fact that birth did not happen for me.
So no, I have not GIVEN BIRTH. I have beautiful babies and they are mine. They were removed. Not birthed.
Writer's Note: Although I feel this way about MY birth, I do not feel this way about ANYONE ELSE. If you delivered your babies via section and feel you gave birth, good on ya! I do not. I do force my feelings or opinions on you, so do not be offended with the feelings I have about the way MY children came earthside. Thank you, and goodnight.
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